Friday, March 28, 2008

Undignified

"Undignified"
I will dance
I will sing
To be mad
For my King
Nothing Lord
Is hindering
This passion in my soul

Chorus:
And I'll become
Even more undignified than this
Some may say
It's foolishness

But I'll become
Even more undignified than this
Leave my pride
By my side

And I'll become
Even more undignified than this
Some may say
It's foolishness

But I'll become
Even more undignified than this
Than this

I will dance
I will sing
To be mad
For my King
Nothing Lord
Is hindering
This passion in my soul

La, la, la, la, la, HEY!
La, la, la, la, la
La, la, la, la, la, HEY!
La, la, la, la, la

It's all for You my Lord!

That is a song I learned from my church here in Bloomington and I love it. It's such an upbeat fun song to sing that puts me in a good mood. But not only is it just a fun song to sing...it's a great song in principle too.

I've been reading a book titled unChristian and the chapter I'm currently on is about hypocrisy and how nonchristians view Christians as being hypocritical. That chapter really hit home for me. I can be very hypocritical about my faith and love for God. I'm a people pleaser and don't like standing out in a crowd, so much so that I'll keep my faith quiet and sometimes I'll say one thing in front of one group of people and then turn around and say something totally different to another group.

It's like I'm trying to save face with both groups of people but this song is talking about becoming undignified for Jesus. I looked up the word 'dignity' online (because I like knowing what big words mean) and this is what I found:
dig·ni·ty (dgn-t)n. pl. dig·ni·ties
1. The quality or state of being worthy of esteem or respect.
2. Inherent nobility and worth: the dignity of honest labor.
3.
a. Poise and self-respect.
b. Stateliness and formality in manner and appearance.
4. The respect and honor associated with an important position.
5. A high office or rank.

To be undignified as it is in this song then would mean to not save face but to give up all manners of earthly status and respect and to sink to the lowest of lows, just to praise God. It's essentially praising and worshiping God with everything I have and no regard for what anyone else is thinking of or about me.

I've been to a charismatic church before where it seems nothing is done in an orderly fashion. People are interrupting the service all the time with "praise God", "Hallejua" and whatever else they feel like yelling out, they can't seem to stand still when singing songs and I've been to one service where everyone prays out loud at the same time! At the time I thought it was really odd and weird and very different than the church I remember growing up in where everything is done "properly", the pastors are the only ones that speaks and prays while everyone is sits quietly and still until the service is over. But now I look back and think how cool! Those people didn't care what they looked like when they were jumping up and down during the song or dancing in the aisle way. And they weren't ashamed to just say whatever was on their heart during the "pray-along" when everyone prayed at the same time, or during the service when the pastor said something that struck home to any individual.

It just seems that today people are more self conscious of what they look like and they have to keep everything in check for their public reputation...my self included. God should be the one more dignified and worthy of respect and honor. It's not all about me. It's about God and I only need to be worried about what God thinks of me...not what the person in the other pew (or down the hall or across the street or whatever) thinks about me.

I will become even more undignified than this.